from toddler to preschooler.
this growing up stuff is crazy.
it seems like now that she's talking SO much ALL the time, she looks older to me almost every time i look at her.
and she's always saying something that she's just too young to be able to say. and each day, she does something, you know....older.
i was journaling this morning about God's vision for our home, God's vision for our girls.
preschool vs. no preschool
homeschooling vs. reg. school
about wanting to teach them and take the time to just BE with them and the balance of it all.
i sort of wish that it was more black and white. you know...if you do this, then they'll do this....
a check list and a schedule is good for tasks i suppose, but how can i be sure i am doing what i need to be doing as a mom? (insert big, frustrated sigh)
i do believe there is only one answer, one all encompassing answer.
i have to be connected to the Holy Spirit.
have to be.
in the middle of my scattered day full of attempts at being "productive" i need Him to whisper to me
"you know she deserves a spanking, she knows she deserves a spanking, but I want you to offer her grace"
i need to be able to hear Him to say to me
"talk to avery about why she did that, don't just put her in time out"
or
"go hold ashton and look her in the eyes right now"
i never want my "well-planned-out" schedule to replace the powerful voice of the Holy Spirit.
you know anna in the bible? i think there's only a handful of verses about her. she was at the temple SO much. praying and reading her bible, i bet. she put herself in God's presence A LOT and because of that she recognized Him, she knew His voice. and when mary and joseph brought that baby up to the temple.
anna knew right away. "That's JESUS"
i can just picture God whispering that into anna's soul. and she HEARD Him. she was connected.
it scares me to think about all of the times when He's tried to tell me something, tried to get me to hear Him, but my thoughts were elsewhere, my plan was too important. i need to be connected to Him like that. like anna was.
they may not know it yet.
but this little girl .....
(i just think she looks SO BIG in this picture.....i can't believe it really)
.....this "baby-turned-toddler-turned preschooler" and her little sister. they are relying on me to be connected to HIM.
5 comments :
This was so beautiful, Mands. Thanks for giving glimpses into your precious heart for the Lord.
Such a much needed reminder for me today (and everyday). I have to be connected to the Holy Spirit and allow Him to be involved and present in every task I complete, every "time-out", every tear, etc.
I needed to read this today.
Loved reading this, Mandy. Such a great reminder for me today...and EVERY day. Feeling many of the same things.
Discipline vs grace - such a difficult line, how do you explain the difference between grace and just "getting away with something" to a 2 year-old mind (and how do you know when they're each appropriate)?!
loved this.
i've been listening HARD lately! thanks for the reminder!!!
What a wise mommy your girls have, Mandy. You are carrying on that godly legacy that so many generations before you have begun. Ashton and Aves are so blessed to have a mommy with such an intimate relationship with their Lord.
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