and when i sit down to think about Avery....to really think about who she is. how she is different from every other 2 1/2 year old out there. how God made her unique, how He placed a calling on her little life from before she was concieved.....i feel ultra stumped. little aves feels like a puzzle to me.
on one hand she is caring and loving.
on the other a little bit manipulative and even a tad bit mean (i hate typing that).
on one hand a super duper, outgoing, friendly kid.
on the other, slightly shy and reserved.
she's rough and tough. not scared by much.
but timid sometimes and doesn't want to try new things.
she is meticulous, very observant and will remember things almost better than i can.
(she sat for close to a half an hour pulling the paper off of the crayons)
what i feel in my heart toward her right now is this:
"oh little girl. if you only knew the craftmanship of the Hand that made you. if you only knew that what He put inside of you is precious and rare. please, please, please be confident in who you are. be confident and be bold. be yourself wherever you are, whoever you are with. try new things. laugh at yourself when you make a mistake. with Christ in you, baby girl, you can do ALL things."
it's so hard to figure out what behaviors to force now in order to train her little heart, and what behaviors to let breath and have space and see God work.
i don't want to stifle.
i believe in hard core discipline.
she's two.
i probably think too much.
i long to notice things about her, things that are unique just to her. to notice how she does things, what she gets hurt over, what makes her excited.....
i guess i just need Jesus.
i need Him to teach me about my daughters heart and show me how to lead her, how to train her, how to bring her to Him.
because really.....she just needs Him too.
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she's bent towards creating messes with crayon wrappers. :)
She's 2.
I'm laughing at her peeling off those wrappers. So funny to me right now.
Sweet sweet Avery.
She's NOT mean - just selfish, like all children, definitely including mine. You are doing an amazing job parenting sweet, focused, strong, loyal, committed, intelligent, honest, kind-hearted little Aves. She is truly a unique woman already, and everyone who knows her falls madly in love with her. I'm so thankful for cameras to capture that focused, furrowed, glazed over look she has when she's invested in what she's doing & learning. I think she'll probably have that look forever, but its so adorable on a two year old. (I think the object that best captures her "bent" right now is that wonderful book: Barack Obama: Son of Promise/Child of Hope)
wow. you know her so well! you are doing an AMAZING job! but don't stop studying her...they show you new things all the time!
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