it was making me sad and scared. sad that i could actually feel like that toward this amazing little girl. scared that it wouldn't go away.
the other night we played and played and played after dinner. and man, was it good for my soul. i needed that reminder. not only do i love her. i like her too. she is a super cool little girl.
a super cool little girl who desperately needs a savior. and i am battling for her heart. i want her heart to be His. so bad.
we were playing doctor and laughing and running and tackling each other.
i am so thankful for the gift of that sweet, sweet, time together.
and i'm begging for more.
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Oh, Mandy. I understand. It will get better. You will feel really mean the whole time, but it is for her good that you be consistent and deliberate in your training and discipline.
When you are wavering and not sure what to do, think of her as an adult that you know that is self-centered, whiny, rebellious, etc.
I do believe it starts with them as a 3 year old. You are sowing seeds for her future. She knows that you love her. She feels it every day from you. Even though she won't express it, she feels your love in the boundaries you set.
It gets better. The more you deal with it now, the easier it will be in the future.
Love and Hugs,
Laura
oh, friend. i know. i KNOW! it's SO hard. SO constant. SO overwhelming. and laura is RIGHT. even though you don't SEE it...it's getting in there. He's working through YOU to teach HER how to have boundaries in her life...how to respond to true love that challenges her to be who HE wants to be. you are doing GREAT. i know you are. MUCH love...
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